Bathroom Cleaning & Experimenting

Life is one big wonderful thing to me, I can wake up every morning not knowing what the day will hold. Well today I did my usual cleaning and that meant doing the bathroom, mind you I share a bathroom with my sister who is 12 and it's not so amazing. I'm one who has to have a clean shower and my soaps and shampoos organized and she likes to have things everywhere. Today while I was cleaning I found an old toothbrush rolling around in the cabinet and a cluster of old make-up. It got worst as I went through the draws and decided to just throw everything out (half of her stuff) she didn't even notice how clean her draws were. Reason why I never go near her area, its like digging through a garbage can. But after I conquered the bathroom I decided my room could use a change, I like to re-arrange my room every so often just to change the point-of-view up some. I moved all my things into such a fashion that I can navigate perfectly from my bed to my closet to the bathroom in some funky dance moves. I've recently been looking at getting another tattoo, my friends thing I'm crazy because I just got my first one almost 3 weeks ago. This tattoo I'm going to place on my right fore-arm just to gain my balance back, by that I mean I feel un-balanced with just the one tattoo on my left leg. I'm just excited to get another one and also Thanksgiving is coming up. I will stuff my face with so much food that's going to be so delicious. The snow outside is beginning to melt some which makes me nervous, ice will start to form and that means falling session will begin. Truth be told I've only fell 3 times since I've been here for the past 3 years. I do laugh when other people fall, just a small chuckle but I proceed on to see if their all right. Some news to tell, I've decided to go on FetLife, it's like a dating site but for the kinky people. I'm on it to get my feet wet a little, I'm in it for the Dom/Sub scene. I've never done the "wicked deed" but I've looked into the submission scene and thought "wow this looks amazing!". I'm nervous because I've never done this hell I've never been on a date, but I've done my reading and research and everyone said that the site was safe and you just have to know how to play the game. I feel odd doing this but that's because I have this mind set where I'd meet someone at a bar or some shit. I'm also on Tinder, a friend lead me to it and it seems o.k. I've matched with maybe 16 guys but only like 3 will talk, I'm to weird to start the conversation. I get told that I can be non-approachable because A) I look as if I'm about to smack a bitch or B) I'm to "Intimidating" or to "confident". But whatever I'm going to just let it happen when it wants to. Till next time when something bizarre and interesting happens.

Later Gator,
K.M.

Worth the Work & Winter Winds

Jeez I've been away from my computer for a long time. It's kind of a hassle dealing with a school, work, and managing a healthy social life. In the past months or so I have been through some shit, college interviews going half good and/or bad, but I managed to get accepted to the Art Institute of Austin, Texas which is amazing. I start in the Fall next year so the day I graduate in June I'll have my things packed up and heading straight for Texas, no time to say goodbye. I'm just hoping that I can get settled and get my life going by the time I start college so I can at least be ready for all the change. I do have family in Texas which is amazing because now I'll be able to get some yummy home cooked meals when I need some family time, or really good food. I've recently got a tattoo on my left leg, its a Foxicorn (fox mixed with a unicorn) and it looks "hella rad" as some people have put it. It's my first tattoo, got it done last Saturday and it didn't hurt as people said it would, at some points it even tickled but eh it went well. When I first went in to look at the artist work he was working on a guy who was getting a chest piece done and I must say my face flushed red real quick. This guy was built and well toned I tried so hard not to stare because if I did I'm sure I'd be drooling hard core. I'm pretty sure the guy getting the tat done knew I was trying not to stare and just chuckled at me, it was embarrassing for me to say the least but oh well. In the "great" state of New York it's started to snow which means my job can kiss me goodbye, being one with no car and how I walk to work I am not going to walk to work in the snow, because caring school things, work things, having dozens of clothing on and walking in a storm just to work for 4 or 5 hours is in my opinion not worth the risk. Plus I can use this break off work to really work on school some more and get some sleep here and there. Feeling exhausted all the time is terrible and I don't think passing out in a snow storm would be good for me. I love my job to be honest, I work at a Moe's Southwest Grill (it's like a subway but for Mexican food) the people who work there are amazing and such good people. We get a lot of military people and college kids which is the best because they always have a way of making the night a little more entertaining. Man the weather is wicked today, the snow is so thick that I can look out my window right now and maybe be able to make out the shape of the house right down the road. I guess I should go out and start to stock up on hot chocolate, and marshmallows of course. You can never really get angry at the cold weather because it's suck a perfect time to snuggle up with someone in a mountain of blankets with a cup of hot chocolate near a fire and have a Netflix marathon. I would do that if I had someone....Psh I'm still probably going to do it, I just don't have to share my bed with anyone and can be such a lazy sloth. Oh how the time of winter can be repulsive yet very rewarding.

Later Gators,
K.M

Fine Print & Season For Reason.

Today has been so far a normal day, so far. At my trade school I have to present this project I've been working on with a group of people. There has been complications for this project, the print stops working, a kid can't get his photo's up-loaded to the computer, people just don't bother to come to school. I feel like this project is a total bust for me, I'm not sure I'm happy with the outcome in this project. This morning was quite interesting though, first class of the day was History, mainly just went into reviewing for the Regents (Final test, let's people know that you were taught to pass that test) then I moved on to English were I also reviewed for the Regents and this new test called the Common Core (Another test where it just doesn't really do anything for you). As I'm sitting here in class I wonder what my future will hold, I look up to notice that all the kids in class are screwing around because the Sub we have just left. Yeah the future looks fucked to me, better make it big I guess cause if you're up top you're pretty much safe. Life, what an odd thing to have haha. Tomorrow is going to be an easy day for me, i only have 1 class to go to and I'm pretty much free for the rest of the day. I need to hit the city life this weekend, maybe go to the lake and camp out with a few friends, have a bon-fire going and watch as the sun goes down. I need to take a week off and go down to NYC with a few people and just have some fun, life a little, even goof off here and there. I can't wait till this class is over! I'll be able to work on some more animation characters and maybe work on my photography here and there. I feel like slamming my face into the desk and just take a nap. Last night was a rough one, bare could get my eyes to stay closed for 30 minutes without freaking out and thinking I'm late to school, or my dreams shock me awake one after the other haha. At least I was able to function enough this morning to put my make up on with out it looking fucked up. Not to mention I had to dress real nice today in order to present my work in class, which it seems I'm the only one who seemed to try, well me and maybe 2 others. Is dressing classy just not a known thing anymore? I mean it's not always comfortable but it sure does beat looking like a bum everyday. Well it seems time that I go and try to do something worth doing haha.

Later Gators,
K.M.

Making New Friends & Wondering About Summer.

For the past couple of day's I've been needing someone new to talk to. Thankfully we have the magical thing called the Internet, but it can be risky to find a real, decent person to talk to haha. Plus not to mention there are a lot, and I mean A LOT, of people who just want to fuck with you and/or your mind. Now you may be like "Oh well what about your friends?"....What about them? Sometimes it's just nice to see a new face, or listen to a new voice, if you're like me I can get bored with people very easily because, well they don't have anything to pull my attention back to them. So I found a couple of people who were pretty chill and fun to chat with, like 2 of them we stayed up all night talking about the random-est things, cracked some jokes and went over some fandoms. The sun is out and I'm in the need to go on a nice bike ride, might go for a walk, but I can't stay out to long or I get burned, I'm not one to wear sunscreen haha, which is bad due to me having skin that burns easily. This summer I'm not sure what I'm going to do, I definitely need to get a job that's for sure! I've been turning applications left and right to every place I could possibly work at. But the area I live in they don't take kindly to outsides, well half of them. If your not family or friends with the family they trash your application and say "Get lost kid." and that's that. Trust me it's not the way I dress, when I go to turn in the application I always look nice and classy, respectable in every way. Sometime I don't even know how this place could ever exist. I want to throw BBQ's all summer long and go to the lakes and camp some with some good pals. Be able to go out and watch the fireworks for the 4th of July, I even want to have some summer romances throw together in all the madness. I want to be the Gatsby of summer, everyone will be happy and I could be surrounded by laughter and cheerful faces. But alas that won't happen this year, everyone I know is to goody-goody to let lose, just gonna have to settle with going down to the city then. But that's cool for me, I can do some wandering and discover new places I never knew existed. They say the best places to go are the ones where you have to walk down an alley way to get to it haha. Well I better get my happy bum outside to soak up the sun and enjoy the cool breeze while it still lasts. Maybe I'll go wander around the woods and see if I can spot a deer or something, if I see a bear I'm going to be aw'ed with joy. Seriously people say you can see bears everywhere but I haven't spotted one yet!

Later Gators,
K.M.

Holding Hands & Cupping a Feel

Today was just and ordinary day, if you're someone like me that is. During my hour of freedom in school I checked out some graphic novels, one being the first book of HellBoy, which I devoured in no time. Then I moved on to animal science for the next hour of school, all I did was review for the final test, seems it's the time to review everything you were taught to pass a simple test. Soon, but not long I ram into lunch like a crazed manic, my group and I talked about the 3 B's boobs, butts, and balls. We talked about how we have the perfect partner in our minds, I apparently have a fantasy man on my mind. All I ask is a simple request, to know that when I go to grab my mans ass that it will be so perfect I won't have to adjust my hand to feel it. I can just hold my hand in a cup like position and it will place it self in it ever so perfectly. We all have our needs and special request of our partners body parts now. My good friend said he just wants to have multiple partners with all the parts he wants. I must say that I wouldn't mind having multiple partners but it's not so easy to find people who are cool with "sharing". Moving on the path of time down to my trade school class. In this said trade school I talk a class called Visual Communications, I just want to work with animation and special effects for movies. But anyway in class today we had to do this group connection thing, odd for me because I'm not one to be socially accepted, not by normal people that is. But we had to split in to 2 groups of 6, then we had to hold hands with 2 different people and find a way to untangle, get to looking like a circle where we are all holding hands. I had a little panic attack but tamed it, I don't like to have physical contact with no one I'm not close to, I never hug either, just not my style. Then once we were done with all that mess we had to talk about our environment and to me it felt like a confession circle. I felt silly and not to mention my class is full of immature boys. Everyday I keep hoping that next year they will all be in the am class and I'll be in the pm class. I'm being rude and you may say "oh it can't be that bad".....how was high school for you? Yeah not so fun maybe, but at least I can say I have my great amazing days. I just want to go down south and be in college already, be free from the snow and the people who surround me up here haha. I'm listening to music and the song "Two Weeks" by Grizzly Bear just came on, now I have the feeling to just travel. Travel all around the world and see as much as I possible could before I dismiss this world. Curious as I may be but I want to visit the moon and Mars one day also, and I desperately what to see a working hover board before I die. Back to the Future got my hopes all hyped up for amazing technology, well we do have amazing technology but hover boards!!!! And let's not forget the ability to have the knowledge of Time Travel, so many things I've seen and read about could possible be part of this world, and hopefully soon.

Later Gators,
K.M.

Problems vs Addictions

Today is Tuesday. The sun is out shining and I'm sitting inside typing up this blog. I'm in class right now listening to the sub talking about the test I recently took. All about computers and keyboard shortcuts and how many bits are in a byte, know he's moved on to the good "back in my day" talk. It's all about the floppy disc. I've recently been watching this anime, Attack on Titian. I started watching it Monday and today I'm on episode 22. I got so into the show that on Monday I didn't get one wink of sleep. I'm also all pumped up for the Game Of Thrones episode that just came out like Sunday. I have not read the books yet but really want to if i can ever find the time. The bummer part of having an addition to all my t.v shows and few anime's is I don't have very many people to talk to about them. I may find 1 or 2 but that pretty much sums up my life. I go to schools where the guys and girls are just not interested in the good stuff. It's all about the glitz and glam of MTV for them. Not to mention I am surrounded by guys in my trade school yet none takes a liking to the gore and beauty of what I watch. I have problems I guess, I'm like a fire that can never be put out when it comes to gore and horror and killings. If you start to talk about special effects in a movie and it was good I will eye ball you up and down then talk to you about serious shit about the techniques the 's used to make the glare effects for Star Trek. I might be mental or am just living in a hell created just for me but no one is like that up here. I so desperately need a person face to just look at me and be all magical and shit and the words that could possible escape its parted lips would be "I'd tell you to live long and prosper but the Lannister's send their regard's." At that moment I would be set for life. Swirling about in a black hole I could possible call a heart, you would be there. Plus not to mention I have no feel's for people to hurt up here it's odd. Well I must say that was eye opening, speaking of eye opening some love drama happened on my bus today. Not to be a girl here but here I go, so this guy wants to date this girl but the girls not taking the hints, some of the girls around me say she's into gay men which I had to look at these people with my face implying "what the fuck". So blah blah on and on this guys crushed on setting his mind on getting this girl. All I would like to know is why? There are more people out there, but what could I possible say to these people. I've never been in a relationship so I have no clue on how it all goes down. I'm not one to understand the feelings or love let alone I can definitely not understand the art of flirting. Complete mystery there Ladies & Gentlemen.

Later Gators,
K.M.

Group Work & Butts

So today at my trade school we were given the task of creating a magazine cover, a business card, a poster, and a rack card for a local business. Well our art director was out due to medical reasons and we had a sub who put us into group of 4 by alphabetical order. It's towards the end of the school year and I really haven't interacted with the people in my class. If you were to walk into my class I would be the girl in the corner minding myself and not really being part of the gossip that so happens in my class. Let alone I and 1 of 3 girls in my class and the rest are high school boys. To come back to the story, I was grouped up with one of the other girls and 2 guys. Once we got done with our class meeting I raced to get back to my desk and start researching this company and looking at competitors designs (I was tasked with creating the business card). Through out the entire day no one both to talk to me, only to see how I was doing and if I was alright. Turn's out I was good and felt lonely though, people around me were talking and laughing but not things I was quite interested in. I'm not all about listening to songs about genitals and kitchen jokes and the fandom's of the cartoon network and such. I'm with the Game Of Thrones, MARVEL & DC comics, Supernatural, Castle even, and basically everything with Comedy Central.
Thankfully I looked up in time to see that the clock showed it was almost time to go. I saved my work, packed up and headed out the door to grab a good spot on the bus. On the way home I listened to my music and started to think about the conversation I had at lunch. During my lunch hour I always have the strangest but amazingly good conversations. This time we talked about guys not having nice butts, and we also watched a guy walk. About the butts, I think it would be nice to meet a guy with a great ass. Seriously if this guy is getting boobs and ass I at least what some butt action as well. Where I am living right now I have to say I haven't seen a guy with a booty yet. But I'm still looking, on the hunt to see if there is possibly a guy up here with a little bump for a rump. Then we saw this guy walk, so elegant and graceful like a swan. I was amazed and jealous because I can't walk so elegant like this guy can. I imagined myself walking up to him simply saying "How??" and he would look at me all majestic and fancy, just say "Skills". Then he would somehow just grow a pair of angel wings and ollie out on a golden skateboard with the sound of angels ~Ahh~ing at him. I'd master up a plan to become his friend later on, if friendship could ever be a possibility, then I would learn a trick of the trade and walk as majestically as this guy does, but with a ginger twist.
Time to snap back to the bus for it's my stop, as I get off the bus and enter my lovely home I wonder what tomorrow will hold for me. I just hope it will be a good Friday, and maybe I'll meet someone new and we can be rather odd together.

Later Gators,
K.M.